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Ahmad is the hero and the main
character which moves the axis of the story. He is 19 years old. He
was born during the Israeli invasion of South Lebanon in 1982. He
belongs to Jerusalem through his father and grandfather, with average
height, harmonious body inclining a lot to slenderness, black haired
and habitually composed. He is from Jerusalem. He wants to live
peacefully despite the oppression he is exposed to every day. He lives
on his land as if he were stranger, and feels as if he were always
rejected. Nonetheless, he is peaceful. He is aware of the fact that he
lives as a second class citizen in a state whose racialism is
devouring its body. He naturally refuses violence. He could be
slightly coward, for he is a normal human. He is not a supernatural
hero. He does not understand the national theories. His education is
so low. When his school is not choked with the smell of tear gases,
you find them closed most of the school year days under the orders of
the Zionist authorities. His only relation is restricted to his
family. He, always and with simple instinct, repeats “Long live
Palestine. Long live the Resistance”, but his permanent trouble was
how to make his living. Religion to him was something instinctive,
valuable, suggesting dignity and honor, and is still beating despite
hundreds of inquiries, satellite channels, currents of materialism,
sex, and so forth.
Circumstances and events are going to develop in Ahmad’s life
to stimulate him as they had already stimulated thousands of
the youth to defend their fathers, mothers and themselves,
grabbing any weapon that may repulse the settlers’ bulldozers
and tanks, even if it were a stone .. the very same stone
which was part and parcel of his and his brothers’ bedroom
roof before a bulldozer came and pulled it down in one moment
under the sight of his startled mother and five brothers whom
the Israeli soldiers ordered to stand at the opposite wall
while they were half sleeping half dead, and while his father
was swallowing his sticky blood with the humiliation of the
rifle base beat of an Israeli soldier constantly screaming,
“terrorist , and sons of terrorist”.
This
precious stone, on which he used to draw the dreams of future
by the dancing light of the consecutive car lamps in the
night, turned into a weapon. It turned from being a symbol of
devastation into a symbol of triumph.
Ahmad
will hold an arm, and is going to shoot, but he is doing so
because he is defending himself; a conduct that is not deemed
violence. It is an enormous mistake to attribute to him such a
hateful term because it is a right which neither a religion
nor a law could prevent neither him nor us from clinging to.
We should also raise our children fully understanding this
notion, because it is a minute mixture drawing a line between
our existence and our extinction.
We do
not want to waste time repulsing, justifying or understanding
violence. The problem of defending our existence, as Arabs, is
much more important and urgent. We will never feel ashamed of
presenting Ahmad’s courage and reactions as a cure of the case
of loss, weakness and humiliation which we, adults, are living
today and whose influence is running through our mothers’ milk
down to our children and settles firmly in our souls when we
see rude shots - on the TV screens - challenging the world
while looking for those soft breasts every moment; whereas we
are unconsciously looking for luck sign of the zodiac and
celebrating the others’ victories. We will have the honor of
planting the smile of the dream of triumph and filling dignity
in the hearts of the youth, the youth of future.
Ahmad
is going to move spontaneously, and he will convulse
spontaneously. He will not keep silent when the jailer’s blade
plunges into his living veins, the same as hundreds of similar
young men and children who have been determined to reformulate
the image of history with their blood. |
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Sister of Ahmed and the
future wife of Khaled K, a symbol of the Palestinian woman
,that losses the men of here family one after another , some
go to jail some get transferred outside , luckiest is the the
dead .. the martyr ,works silently , cries silently , fades
silently .........(soon at
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